Wednesday, July 06, 2005

.Sara Lee's a babe.

The above is a quote from Matt, one of the coolest kids to ever weild a spatula in my kitchen job. We were serving some cheesecake today. I am back at the acres, doing the camp thing. Unfortunately, I have had little to no time to enjoy it. I have been working. I have been working as if I were treeplanting, except that it is somewhat more difficult in some respects. When you are treeplanting, at least you don't need to smile when all you want to do is scream. You just scream and be done with it. I am regularly clocking 14 hour days...up at 6 am, an hour or two break in the afternoon, and then working til ten thirty at night. All I do is work and sleep. Today I did a stress puke into the mop bucket on the job. I yelled at my co workers because they took a twenty minute dinner break while I was all alone in the kitchen, and then bickered over who would go in to help me. Oh, I was mad. But I should not have yelled.
As predicted, I have been hearing a lot about bill c-38. I haven't made it to church yet (I'm scheduled right through it) but the diners have their own sermons. Today I overheard a man discussing his hopes for the downfall of the liberal government, because "Harper would never have let those damned queers have the right to marry." He said "damned" and actually meant it. I have never been more tempted to spit in someone's food. Or in someone's face, for that matter. Every minute I am silent during discussions of "those gays", I feel I am betraying my friends. But whenever I speak I run the risk of betraying Jesus. Lovely. I've left the dinner table crying on two occasions...why do people think that that discussion is small time dinner chat anyway?
I have been given the responsibility of managing some shifts, doing a lot of cooking, tweaking some menus, and adding/inventing some dishes. Thats been great... but a lot of added stress. I have determined that I will be my own boss in future career moves. I have no desire to answer to anyone but myself and the health inspectors.
York university won't let me add my courses. It is eleven pm, all I want to do is sleep. Tomorrow is a 6:00 am morning, as well as the day after, the day after, the day after, and the day after.

2 comments:

.letting go said...

Shannon. You would not do Jesus a disservice by confronting blatant hatred of God's children.

At the same time, remember that these older, good ole revival meeting Christian brothers and sisters of ours are broken beings too. Like me, like you, like our friends.

Like Jesus said, forgive them, they don't know what they're doing.

Blogger said...

It's so much easier to SAY be nice, forgive, don't yell, don't lose your temper, don't swear, etc. but how easy is it to do that?

God knows it's not easy, but he did it, but then again we aren't him... but then again we are to try and imitate him. Such a weird concept eh?

We aren't gods, but yet we are to try and become like christ. Odd.

Anyways, i read about your weeks at this camp. I would have lost my temper and told them all where to go and how to get there. I am proud of you. Even if others say that you did something wrong, i disagree. You are stronger than me and did better for sure.

And about the gay thing. Thats hard eh? Talking about it (you have friends who are gay) ... might seem hard because it's against God, but at the same time you have friends like that. Where should you stand? Im not sure. I often think im bisexual. But yet im a christian. I know people would tell me im wrong. But it's also up to me and god, not me them and god. On the other hand... some people have just become so unsensitive to it that christians are almost ACCEPTING of this homosexuality issue. Yet we are supposed to despise it. But then again... no we aren't. JC hungout with prostitutes and tax collectors. He loves everyone.

I think it's fine . Thats my opinion. I think it's fine to get angry too. We have emotions. Why would god give us anger emotion if we aren't to use it?

Not steve, jerry, noah, etc. reply to this except shannon. i don't have frikn patience to hear your "sonia you're wrong" attitudes.