In approx 5 days. I will be up in the north of Ontario, (where there is still snow on the ground) treeplanting.  I am scared.  Not scared of the work or the new environment or even the camping.  I am scared of failure.  My success in this job depends on me bending over and planting 2000 trees in the ground every single day.  Physically, I know I am at a major disadvantage.  What's more, most people I talk to have told me that they think I'll quit in the first week.  Some have money on it.  Thanks for the support, y'all. 
     I slept in my tent for the first time last night.  It was super chilly, and I have no clue how I'll fit all my gear and me in a tent for two months.  My nose was SO cold...I ended up jerseying myself and pulling my hood over my head.   The solution is a nosewarmer. 
     Adding to my depression is that fact that I told a few Toronto friends that I would fly the rainbow flag from my tent...partially to make them smile, partially because I think it would be fun.  Today I discovered that I will have to traipse back to Toronto to get a bloody flag.  In all reality, I probably won't end up doing that.  When Conor asked me last weekend what in the T-dot made me feel most at home, I replied, "The rainbow flags".  I'd like to take that little piece of home with me.  In PTBO, you can't even special order them. 
Another lonely day outside of town and city.  I can't wait to get on with the next thing coming.
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